Our world is filled with people who just settle. Settle for their spouse, their job, their dreams. I have always been someone who refused to settle. I've seen too many of my friends be in relationships with guys where you literally would ask yourself "Why the hell is she with him?" I'd be there to give advice, they'd break up, get back together, he'd say something sweet, they'd get back together. A viscous cycle. Want to know why people do this? We're afraid. We're afraid of being alone, afraid of not "finding the one," and afraid of love. I know this because I've been that person for years now. I've experienced a very unhealthy relationship at a young age that completely altered my view for what I deserve in my life. That unhealthy relationship actually was one of the best things that could have happened to me. It opened my eyes to what I want in life and what I refused to ever have in my life again. I was recently in a very healthy relationship with someone who I considered more of my "best friend" then my boyfriend. We had a very normal relationship. He made me laugh and he made me happy. For once I experienced something that felt normal. Something I had to learn was that something may feel normal, but that doesn't mean it is right. I don't want to just have a "normal" relationship, I want to have an amazing relationship. After I broke up with him I just turned this song up and smiled, because a) I love this song and b) I just knew it was right.
If more people could just get the guts to give up what feels "normal" in their life and shoot for something bigger, I think we all could experience a new happiness. I know I'll be sad when I see him with another girl, I'll miss his jokes and his laugh, but what is it that will help me move on? The knowledge that God has a plan for me in life and the right guy is out there for me. I'm only 20 years old and by no means will I ever need a man to define me or make me happy. It's time for me to be alone, enjoy my youth, and figure out "Jessica." And when "Mr.Right" comes along...I'll know.
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