You and Tequila Make Me Crazy

Not only is this a beautiful music video, but I've had this song on repeat all week. It just perfectly describes a relationship that I think a lot of us have had. It is one that you know just isn't right. You both just drive each other absolutely nuts, but for someone reason, always come back to each other. Something I've learned is that this doesn't mean that this person is "the one." You each just saw something in the other that you were drawn to, but anything that makes you feel that way can't be good for you (i.e. too much tequila). If anything, a night of "too much tequila" always turns into a lesson well learned. And the guy that drove you crazy, well we all meet them sometime in our life; the hard part is realizing whether he is good for you or not.

The Maid of Honor

My beautiful big sister Jaclynn is getting married in a few weeks, and I still can't believe it. I'm flying out of Texas at 7:25pm to go to California for her bridal shower and bachelorette party. I've always imagined the day that it would happen, but I never thought it would be so soon. My sister sent me this letter in the mail:

    Jessie,  I don’t even know where to begin.  I love you so much!  I guess that’s where.  Throughout the years growing up I have always tried to protect you, and not always in the best of ways, but ways in which all I knew.   I have always seen you as my baby sister who I need to take care of.  I guess that is why when choosing my maid of honor I did not even think of you.   The thought of asking my baby sister for help, is a thought I never even let cross my mind, and makes my stomach turn.  I obviously am too prideful and have issues asking for help.  However, when picturing my wedding I always knew and could never picture anyone else standing by my side other then you. Jessie, I would be honored if you would be my maid of honor!  I want no one else but you to have this place!  Friends will come and go but I will always have you as my baby but very grown up sister.  When looking back at my wedding I want to know I had the right people standing next to me.  I understand if you don’t want to be, it is a lot of responsibility, just let me know.   I care more about you then you even know and that words can even describe.  I am always here for you.  I am saddened by our distance both in actual distance and emotional.  And now instead of going against each other we have been growing closer throughout the years.   I like to think of the times when we would just lay on each others beds talking the night away, not always in the best circumstances but at least we realized we have been there all along.  I love you with all my heart!  I am always just a phone call away.

           Love,

                  Jaclynn

Of course I sobbed like a baby when I read this, but it really truly was the sweetest thing I've ever read. I'm flying to California tonight to be with my family and to hopefully throw my big sis the most amazing bridal shower and bachelorette party ever. I still can't believe how much we've grown up. But through the ups and downs, tears and smiles, my sister said it perfectly; we've been there all along.

And umm..how beautiful is the venue that my sister is getting married at? Its called Monarch Cove Inn in Captiola, California. Stunning. I'll be posting pictures from the actual wedding shortly.

Don't Fade Away..

Wow. This video/song brought tears to my eyes and gave me chills at the same time. This is art in its greatest form: a story and a lesson. This is a great depiction of girls today where their parents divorce/family life have such an effect on them that it leads to this. I've seen it way too many times. Divorce has a larger impact on people then we think. If you watch this video, please pass it on. Hopefully we can save our youth before it is too late.

Song obsession of the week: Skinny Love- Bon Iver

Turn up this song and roll down the windows.

Working that 9 to 5.

I recently got a summer internship with RAPP (formly known as Rapp Collins Worldwid) Marketing. I had an internship last summer for an advertising agency in my home town Glass McClure, it was a great company, but my days were not nearly exciting as my time here at RAPP has been. I feel so blessed to have gotten this position and to have met the people I have met. The environment they have created in this agency is one of a kind. The people are REAL and able to be themselves. There is no strict dress code and it is a relaxed environment but the people are brilliant and get their shit done. Having this internship has opened my eyes to what kind of job I want to get when i'm finished at TCU. I never want to work in a stuffy environment where you feel like you can't be yourself. I've gotten so used to college and being able to sleep into 11 and having my father pay  my bills that this really was an eye opener for me in so many ways. I don't ever want to have to rely on anyone in my life to be financially stable except myself. I'm not goign to lie, i'm scared as hell as to what i'm going to do when end of my senior year of college rolls around and not getting my "monthly allowance" from my Dad. Not to sound pompous, but that is why i've already had 2 internships and I still have 2 years left of college. I don't want to just be "on the grind" after college. I want to get an amazing job I love and still maintain the lifestyle i'm accustomed to. I'm so thankful for all the blessings God has put in my life. I look around at other kids who are doing drugs and still living off their parents pay checks and really just feel proud of myself for how strong i've become and my accomplishments, which is a really great feeling. I learn more and more about myself everyday and i've met some amazing people at this internship that only furthers my point of surrounding yourself with good people goes a long way.

"What Sexy Should Be"

I can't stop watching this cover of Pursuit of Happiness by Kid Cudi done by Lissie. She is such a real pure performer. She puts so much emotion into what she does and I love how when her guitar is out of tune she just throws it onto the stage and starts belting into the mic. A comment I loved on this video that someone posted was "this is what sexy should be." I couldn't have said it better myself. Props.

Pencils worn. Bags packed. Music Blasting.

Haven't blogged in a while mostly due to the sheer fact that my life has been complete chaos...and it's still not over. It's finals week and in less then a week I will be a Junior in college with only 2 more years to "do whatever I want" and "real life begins."As each school year comes to an end, I always find I have learned not only more academically, but more about myself. In my sophomore year i've learned a lot about myself:

1) Balance in life is key.
Nothing is worth stressing out enough to the point where you have a break down. I realized this as I broke down in the financial aid office at TCU when my mother forgot to pay my monthly tuition due to her lack of technology skills and not knowing how to use "ezbill" online. Therefore, my account was on hold and I could not sign up for classes that had one or two slots left. However, my dramatic tear fest did allow the poor ladies in the financial aid office to feel bad for my pathetic self so I did get to sign up for the classes I wanted. After I walked out of that office feeling completely pathetic and overly dramatic, I realized a few things: 1) Fight for the things you want in life...but do so with a little more grace and dignity then I did. 2) Things won't always work out your way, but life goes on. 3) Never yell at your parents ever...all they want is for your to be happy.

2) Be who are 100%.
Going to a very materialistic school where everyone talks about everyone, it is hard not to care what people think about you. I had very few enemies in high school and have very few enemies in college, but I think that is because I've always hated confrontation and have just never wanted to deal with any drama. Freshmen year I got sucked into trying to be someone I wasn't. I am a California girl who came to Texas and experienced a complete culture shock. I joined a sorority at a very Greek school where if you don't dress or act a certain way you're considered a "GDI (god damn indepedent)"..which isn't a good thing at this school? I fell into  the whole southern greek life craze. It only took me going back home for a break to realize how pathetic it all is though. This school is filled with kids whose real selves and souls are covered up with neon tank tops and crookies. It's really sad actually. People are more concerned about being classified by the Greek organization they are then, then what type of person they are.

3) You don't have to like everyone, and not everyone has to like you.
Freshmen year I wanted to get to know everyone and be friends with everyone. But then I  realized that I don't sincerely like some people and certain relationships just felt fake. I've met some of the best people here that I know God put into my life for a reason, and I've also met some people here where I have to remind myself on a daily basis that "God knows the truth about them," or that karma will do justice on them. Although I hate confrontation, there are a few relationships in my life where I would rather not be friends with that person, then have a completely fake relationship with someone I really don't even want to associate myself with. In life you will meet people who will change your life, and you will meet people who you really wish would just disappear..but you have to learn to deal with it. In school, in the work place, even in your family, there will always be that person who just pisses you off. You don't have to like them, and they don't have to like you. There is a difference between being "fake" and being "civil." For those people who I don't agree with, civil is all we will ever be, and hey, that's perfectly fine with me. If you surround yourself with good people and try to do what is right in all you do,that's good enough. Don't waste your time caring about someone who doesn't care about you..however cliche that sounds, it's so true.

As this year comes to an end and I've learned some valuable life lessons, relationships have blossomed and grown strong, some relationships have fizzled, and I'm "ripping posters off the wall and moving boxes into the hall" and starting a new chapter in my life...i'm playing "Pull My Heart Away" by Jack Penate. Perfect song for the end of a very transformational and eye opening school year.

It Will Give You Chills

Danny MacAskill- "Way Back Home" video literally gave me chills through my entire body as I was watching it. I am no BMX bike rider, and the only bike I own is a green beach cruiser with a wicker basket and white wheels, but as I was watching this video it wasn't just his amazing talent that really got me, but his drive. This video can be seen as a symbol of inspiration and that extra drive we all need in our day to day life. Both the songs in the video I absolutely love as well. Wax and Wire-Loch Lomond is the first song and A Little Piece- The Jezebels is the second, both such powerful songs. Excellent job on the videography as well. I thought you all would enjoy this. 

Just When I Thought Music Couldn't Get Worse..

One of my inspirations for the creation of this blog was to post real, pure, great music for people to listen to in a world filled with over-processed, regurgitated, non meaningful music. Once I thought music couldn't get any worse after Kei$ha's "Tik Tok" song was released, everything I ever thought was proved wrong when I heard the most dreadfully repulsive song i've ever heard in my life: Rebecca Black "Friday." Not only does the way she say Friday just completely piss me off, but the fact that this video has over 40 million views about a song about how a girl gets up in the morning, has to decide where she wants to sit, and how happy she is it's Friday just makes me lose hope for this generation of music to turn around. And please note the token black rap verse, how cliche and so completely pointless? Who ever produced this song, you should be fired. You look like a nice girl Rebecca Black, but singing just isn't for you.

20 years and the grass is definitely greener, as is the beer.

Today is not only one of my personal favorite holidays, but it's the day I can no longer call myself a teenager; my 20th birthday and St. Patricks Day. A lot has happened in past 20 years, and I'd say overall, it's been one hell of a life thus far. Although it sounds cliche, i've "lived and learned," i've lost and loved, made relationships and ended relationships, had many successes yet many hardships, and all of it has made me the level headed yet "happy-go lucky" 20 year old girl I am today. So as I go out tonight with the ones I love to celebrate beating teen pregnancy and never getting sent to juvi, and I sip a green colored beer that may or may not be good for my health; i'll be smiling to myself and thanking God for the 20 years I've lived so far and the greenest St.Patricks day i've seen yet. It's 20 years later and the grass is definitely greener, as is the beer.

Cheers.

In the spirit of St. Patricks Day, a talented band I love: Flogging Molly- If I Ever Leave This World Alive

The 90's--When life was simple, and music was good.

It was the times of "Nick at Night" and "Disney Channel Original Movies," it was before television became regurgitated versions of every other show on TV and the reality show crase. It was a time of freedom and no responsibilities, a time before people became completely consumed in technology and face to face conservations were still had. It was a time where I would wake up in the morning and the only hard decision I had to make was what kind of sandwich I wanted my mother to pack me for lunch. But what I love most about the 90's: the music. The 90's was the last of the good music before it started to become overproduced with little or no meaning. 


It was the good ol' days. 




There are so many great 90's songs but i've tried to narrow it down to a few of my favorite classic songs from the 90's: 



1. What I Got- Sublime












2. Len-Steal My Sunshine






2. Third Eye Blind- Semi-Charmed Life

3.TLC- Waterfalls














4. Meredith Brooks- Bitch 

5. Marcy Playground- Sex and Candy 












6. What's My Age Again- blink-182

7. Oasis- Wonderwall 












8. AtLiens- OutKast












9. Meet Virginia- Train












10. Fu-Gee-La- The Fugees


















11. What's Up?-4 Non Blondes












12. Sway- Bic Runga

13. Walk Away- Ben Harper 

14. Torn- Natalie Imbruglia

15. Aint Nothing But A G Thang- Dr.Dre ft. Snoop Dog




















16. Creep- Radiohead


















17. Hallelujah- Jeff Buckley




















18. Mary Janes Last Dance- Tom Petty


19. If It Makes You Happy- Sheryl Crow

Undie Runs. Who the hell made this ok?

Nothing screams "Hire me!" to future employers than a picture of you in your underwear running through your "accredited" campus on your Facebook. Call me a prude, but I don't get it. Really though, looking at this shit makes me ask myself what the hell our society is coming to. For girls who choose to do the undie run you'll either be criticized for not looking good enough in your underwear by the tool guys running next to you (honestly though, you really shouldn't be running around in your underwear looking like that), or you'll be looked at as the "DTF"girl who actually decided to degrade herself and run around in her underwear. And for guys who do the undie run...you just look like a douche-bag running around campus in your underwear. Were all adults here, if you want to go on a run, put on some work out clothes and go burn off those extra beer calories from the weekend. And if you want to party, I promise you, you can still have a hell of a good time not running around looking like a fool in your underwear.

Thats my opinion of the day. Oh, and don't even get me started on lingerie parties.

One of the truest songs you'll ever here.

Faces-Ooh La La






"I wish that I knew what I knew now...when I was younger."

Dont we all?

Streets Of San Francisco NYE

My high school friend Michael Baca has been going to school in the beautiful city of San Francisco and really has a talent for photography and film. He got a job filming NYE in San Francisco with Steve Aoki by the Streets of San Francisco and did an amazing job. I can't stop watching it. Plus this video perfectly depicts the new of era of music that has become extremely popular. "Dubstep and Electronic" have seen to be taking over and I have started to take a liking for some of the music. Let me know what you think. And if this video doesn't make you want to go out for a drink, I don't know what else will. Enjoy.

Fashion Obsession

I've always liked anything feminie and anything made out of beautiful fabric and vibrant colors.   I came across Whitney Ports new fashion line called Whitney Eve and fell completely in love. One outfit that particularly stole my heart though was this gorgeous jacket. Of course it was sold out though when I tried to buy it. I even took it to a completely different fashion obsession level and wrote in my planner for when it comes back in stock; yeah, it's that good. Check out Whitney's new line at: whitneyeve.com. I love how detailed and beautiful each piece of her clothing is. Total Bombshell.